The Agony and The Ecstasy

I woke up early this morning in some discomfort. It’s not an uncommon occurrence. My often hours long “morning wood” causes me some pain from the base ring pressing into my expanded flesh. I’ve grown used to it, but there are mornings like this morning where it’s particularly unpleasant. It’s just one of the things I put up with for the privilege of being locked. In fact, it’s a reminder (should I ever forget, which isn’t likely) that I am indeed a caged male.

When I first started in “long term” chastity (long term at that point being defined as more than a few days, my how far we’ve come), I rarely slept through the night. I think I slept maybe a few hours the first week I was locked. But, over time, I got used to it. In fact, it’s like my security blanket now. I doubt I’d sleep without my cage on. I still remember the first night I actually slept solidly until morning. It was a blessed relief, because I wanted to be locked, but we all need our rest. I was glad when I knew the two could peacefully coexist.

I don’t particularly enjoy the pain I experience in my cage (at least not that kind of pain), but it’s fleeting and it’s also erotic for me, as it reinforces my status (which doesn’t help my unrelenting boner). I’ve developed strategies that generally allow me to go back to sleep. Usually, I can tug on the cage or pull the skin so the achey spot moves. I keep some lidocaine cream on the nightstand as well. A small amount of that relieves the pain quickly. Sometimes I do just have to get up and pee, which is highly effective. I suppose I could just ask to be unlocked, but that’s not going to happen (I’m not going to ask and I doubt I would be anyway at this point). So, I light a metaphorical candle rather than curse the darkness and just deal with it. As long as there is no actual wound or damage, it’s really just uncomfortable. It would be a different story if there was a wound (which has happened pre-Steelwerks). In that case, take the damn cage off. Don’t be a martyr. You need your dick (otherwise what would you lock?).

That’s the thing about long term chastity: there’s a lot of stuff you have to be willing to deal with mentally as well as physically, and if you can’t, you’re not going to enjoy being locked for more than a short time. Things are going to hurt, balls are going to swell, cleaning can be a chore, and something will rub the wrong way at the most inconvenient time. I’m not trying to discourage you, just being up front about it. I’ve thought about this a lot lately as I’ve gone through Invisalign. They sell you on how fast and easy it is (only 4 months!). They don’t tell you that during those 4 months you’re gonna have sore teeth and gums, headaches, insomnia, and a speech impediment. But it’s only 4 months! Oh, didn’t we tell you that afterwards you have to wear a retainer at night for the rest of your life? No? We didn’t mention that? Oops, our bad. So be warned; being locked essentially permanently has many upsides for those of us who need it, but it’s not without its drawbacks. For me, those drawbacks are just part and parcel of being locked, and it’s absolutely fine. It’s my life now and for the foreseeable future.

I have come to terms with the pain I experience on occasion. I’ve accepted that I’m never going to have an orgasm uncaged, that I’m never going to get blown or fuck anyone again, and that I essentially have a titanium dick, and I accept it because I have come to realize that this is how I’m am supposed to be. I’ve never felt more free as myself (ironic, I know) since my dick was taken away. I never even see my flesh cock anymore except for the short amount of time I’m unlocked for necessary maintenance (and there’s been some talk about handcuffs and blindfolds during that time). But I see my titanium cock all the time, and that’s how I see myself now. I like what I see between my legs. It’s right for me and it’s a part of me now. I’ve known it for a long time, it just took a while to get here. I do that sexually anyway when I’m a slave. I put up with things that aren’t comfortable to please my Sir (my previous Master and whomever that will be in the future). I get joy from pleasing them, just as I experience joy from knowing I am forever locked in werks. I think most subs out there will understand that, most Doms can appreciate it, and the rest of you probably think I’m nuts.

Stay well and stay safe (and stay locked!)

-Doc

Published by Locked Doc

Middle aged switch reclaiming his kink and exploring Bdsm with both his husband and his Master. Always locked.

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