7 days. 7 fucking days unlocked. 7 days of feeling wrong. 7 days of, if not quite being in hell, then being hell-adjacent. As you may recall, I was wounded by the Kink3D designs cage. I’m not blaming their product. I’m blaming myself, completely. Ever since I had to unlock, I’ve watched the wound likeContinue reading “Purgatory”
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Feels Like the First Time
I’ve been essentially permanently locked for over 1500 days (yes, that’s a little over 4 years if you’re not inclined to do math). And yet, it’s as thrilling today as the first time a cage was placed on my cock some 25 years ago. You would think that by now it would be old hat,Continue reading “Feels Like the First Time”
Conundrums
The two weeks I spent locked down tight in the Schandemask has got me a little bewildered. Let me explain. I’m still sorting out the feelings I’m having, so I apologize if I ramble. Those two weeks of (relative) suffering brought me back to an earlier time in my chastity adventure. Back to before werks.Continue reading “Conundrums”
Disciplinary Action
I never intended to be locked in a Steelwerks Schandemask. I knew about them. I know a few people who own one, but the idea of me having one was not on my radar, not even remotely. I purposely don’t use the word own, because while I might have bought them, my cages, like myContinue reading “Disciplinary Action”
Gone But Not Forgotten
As mentioned in my last post, I no longer have a cock. I have an owned appendage encased in titanium that I use to piss with. I’m not allowed to come unless it’s from other areas of my body being stimulated , and always caged. My former cock will never be unlocked, will never beContinue reading “Gone But Not Forgotten”
The Switch is Back
While I have been primarily focusing on my submissive side, I have always had a Dominant streak, which I thought was in deep hibernation. I used to describe myself as a Dom with a submissive side, then a switch, and recently primarily a submissive, because that is where my headspace is and needs to be.Continue reading “The Switch is Back”
Krakatoa
I’ve really been enjoying co-hosting the Chastity Chat Twitter space with @thumpermn (other than I realize my voice is far less Barry White and far more eerily close to The Nanny when I hear the recording). We’ve discussed a number of topics and the insights of some of the participants always makes me think moreContinue reading “Krakatoa”
What’s In a Word?
Boy, pig, slave. I’ve been all of them. What is the difference? Or is there a distinction without a difference? Is it just power exchange in a bdsm relationship by another name? Yes, and no. Just like with chastity, there is no one right way to have a D/s relationship. Your dynamic as a subContinue reading “What’s In a Word?”
Maybe, Finally
I finally met my Sir. We met in LA last weekend. I was up visiting friends. I was nervous to say the least. Sir describes himself as a demisexual, which I had to google: Okay, I think I understand. I’m not that way, but if I’ve learned anything in the last 56 years around theContinue reading “Maybe, Finally”
Maybe….
I’ve been talking with someone. Someone who gets what is going on in my kink brain and who wants pretty much the same things, from the Top side. Someone who is as excited about me being locked as I am, who wants to keep me locked away, and who encourages and desires it as muchContinue reading “Maybe….”
The Locked Doc 