I hate confrontation or conflict. I’m am not one of those people who will berate someone behind a counter because they are not getting what they want or think they should. I’ll ask nicely, and if I don’t get what I want, I’ll sulk quietly and I’ll try a different strategy. I’m not a doormat, but I actively avoid conflict. Asking nicely often works, but I am not going to get into an argument.

I’ve just realized I’ve been sexually sulking the last few days, and I need to stop it. I’m sulking over orgasms, specifically the fact that I am getting them again. My last run of orgasm denial was 235 days of hormones, frustration, teasing, leaking, and sheer bliss. Since then, I’ve come almost every time we have sex, so I’ve been avoiding sex (again) to avoid an orgasm.

Tease and denial is an absolutely amazing experience. No tease and denial is not. Tripp can give me an orgasm or deny me one if he wants to, that’s the deal. Right now, he wants to. I realized I’ve been a complete idiot the last few days because I’ve been avoiding giving him the chance because I don’t want one. It’s not working so well.

The good news is I realize what a colossal boob I am being and what I need to do about this (that’s some personal growth right there). I’m going to tell Tripp I would very much like to be denied again, but I’m totally fine with getting an orgasm if he wants me to have one. And I’m going to kiss him and put my caged cock in his hands (literally and figuratively) to do with as he pleases.


Published by Locked Doc

Middle aged switch reclaiming his kink and exploring Bdsm with both his husband and his Master. Always locked.

One thought on “Avoidance

  1. You forgot it wasn’t about you but about what he wanted? I can see how hard it could be. I did laugh at your description of being a “boob”. Being self aware doesn’t always mean you can sort out what needs to be done but it strikes me you can and are doing it. I am a bit wow-ed.


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