Ruined

Tripp gave me a ruined orgasm the other night. He didn’t intend to, but that’s what happened. Tripp was using the magic wand on my cage and he set it to vibrate intermittently. He does this when he’s teasing my cock, but he decided he wanted me to come and told me to come for him.

Unfortunately, just as I was about to orgasm, the vibrator shut off. I was almost at the point of climax. Buckets of semen poured out of me, but I didn’t have an orgasm. I have to admit, in this case, I wasn’t happy about this. He drained my balls pretty completely and I stayed horny as hell, which I normally wouldn’t mind (in fact I would love it, but I was told to come). The next day, I definitely did not feel like I had come or had any satisfaction and my horniness was undiminished. I had wondered if this is the answer to my denial desires with Tripp. I don’t think it is, as it won’t take any pressure off Tripp to play with me. It was mechanical. There was no pleasure or release involved to speak of.

It’s nice that the plumbing was cleared, but I don’t think it left me in the place Tripp wanted. I think if he’s going to make me come, then he wants me to COME. Just draining my balls was wholly unsatisfying. If that was the point of the evening, I’d be fine with it. In fact, it’s probably a good thing to do for denied boys. I strongly recommend it for those who are not getting an orgasm to keep the pipes clear. But since the point was to give me an orgasm, we failed on all counts. I’m not leaking because I’m empty, and I didn’t get any pleasure out of it. In fact, I feel worse than if it hadn’t happened at all.

I think, going forward, if Tripp wants me to orgasm, then we’re going to have to use a different setting on the wand. Being told to come but having it unintentionally ruined was, in fact, very disappointing. I feel like I failed. I was told to come and I didn’t do what I was supposed to. I want to please him and I want to do as I’m told sexually. Tripp has his reasons for wanting me to come and that is good enough for me. I didn’t and the sub in me feels bad about that.

Of course, if the point had been to ruin it, I’d have felt very differently as we were very successful at that, and I’d have been totally happy with it. And if he wants to do that, we know how. After I told Tripp what happened (which was a couple of days later because I felt so bad about not performing as ordered) he did seem quite interested in repeating the experience. He was quite impressed with the amount of semen I produced for him and he hinted that he might just want to do that to me next time. If he can put up with me, I’m happy for him to ruin all my orgasms. I prefer to be in that perpetually horny state that denial brings me. I mean, he’s ruined me for other men, he might as well ruin my orgasms too.

-Doc

Published by Locked Doc

Middle aged sub/slave reclaiming his kink and exploring Bdsm with both his husband and his Master. Always locked.

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