The Last Dance

I’m almost certain I’m never going to be unlocked again. Unless something changes in me, I know my former cock will likely be forever encased. It’s not needed anymore. Should I be required to fuck, we have strap ons that are more than adequate for the job. In fact, at this point, they’re better because I’m pretty sure I couldn’t last more than a few minutes. I’m also not sure I can get hard without my cage. I suppose Tripp or Sir might want to use my cock someday, which is their right, but I doubt it.

Believe it or not, I’m still a switch. It’s true that being caged is a gateway to my submissive side, but I don’t believe it prevents my dominant traits from coming out should the right situation arise. Does every Dom have to fuck or come into a sub to be a Dom? I don’t think so. I can still enjoy someone’s submission. I can bind them, and hurt them, have them grovel in submission, get into their minds, have them suck on my cage, and other than fuck them with my fleshy bits, be every bit a Dom as I wish. Being caged does not automatically make you a submissive. It’s a state of mind, not body. So what if I want to use them as a human dildo because I crave my ass being filled for my pleasure? Fucking and having my cock sucked was such a small part of my identity as a Dom. Where is it written that every scene must end with an orgasm? The brain is the biggest sex organ. Satisfy that, and everyone goes home happy.

I have been pondering the next step in chastity: no longer having orgasms. It’s a fantasy of mine which has not been realized. I long for Tripp to say that my last orgasm was actually my last. Not every fantasy is good in reality, but this one is powerful. It’s the final step in having my cock completely owned, and one I think I want to take. But it’s a fine line between not being allowed an orgasm and not having your cocked played with. I do want to be edged and teased and left frustrated and horny. I want to want to come, but be denied. That’s my fantasy.

I doubt Tripp would want to go there. As I’ve said, he can be sadistic, but he is not a sadist, nor is he naturally dominant. He’s come a long way, and he is glorious, but he does not get off on my suffering for him. I’d need him to want to see me suffer in that way, and he does not have that in him, at least not yet. Sir does, but He doesn’t have exclusive rights to me. If I was with Sir all the time, this probably would have happened already, because Sir is first and foremost a sadist. It’s not that Tripp isn’t kinky, he’s just naturally submissive. He doesn’t look at me that way, at least not all the time. He likes to make me come.

I don’t look at orgasm the way I did before. I look at them more as a gift than as a right. I haven’t given myself one since I’ve been locked, and I’ve had far fewer than ever in my adult life. Masturbation ended when Tripp agreed to lock me. I promised him I would never make myself come again. If orgasms stopped because the men who own my cock decided to stop them, I’d love it. I want them to decide that I am no longer going to have them. That’s the level of control I desire.

I do enjoy the orgasms I get, and I do enjoy them more when they are infrequent. I’ll take what I can get in that aspect and be happy with it, because when it all comes down to it, it’s about me and Tripp and our lives together and it’s just as important that he is happy as it is that I am happy. If Tripp ever decides he would like me to suffer without an orgasm for him, I’m there willingly and completely.

-Doc

Published by Locked Doc

Middle aged switch reclaiming his kink and exploring Bdsm with both his husband and his Master. Always locked.

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